Those who're outrageously chatty and utterly lacking in self-consciousness tend to meet many people and make many friends. As I was talking to a friend about it, watching someone have what we want, but do not have, we feel envious. For me, I just feel a little green, and perhaps regret not being more outgoing, but I leave it as that and not think anymore. But my friend pointed out that when we experience envy, we're at the same time making ourselves feel sad. Maybe it's nice to know more people, but it's not necessary, so we should feel happy with what we have. In that vein, I'm not unhappy, I am - I'm simply dissatisfied, I want more. Labels: friends, Japan, musings
Then again, when I think of how those outrageously chatty people get on my nerves sometimes, I'm glad I'm (generally) not like that. Still, I can't help but wonder what it's like to be so open, so unhesitant to start a conversation with a stranger. Don't they feel the least bit embarrassed to approach strangers, or the least bit wary/scared of new people who don't exactly look very friendly? That quality in them, it's.... different from myself.
I think I'm gathering dust in my corner. *swipes*